Sometimes I wish things never changed, that we were still the same when we first met each other, but then I think back and see how much I have grown as a person. I am no longer a doormat for you to walk all over, I no longer feel sad when I think about the past times, not because I don’t miss them cause trust me I do, but because I can now look back and it not cause me pain. Before I when I use to think of you I felt as if my heart would shatter into million tiny pieces, never to be put back together. I felt that I had lost my other half, like something had died and I was never going to get it back.Memories shouldn’t be painful to think about and it took me a long time to realize this. We use to have something no one else could ever touch, but then things changed, and I had to adjust. I’m not going to lie there were nights when I would cry myself to sleep cause I missed you so bad, or days where I would write you a thousand messages and never send one because I didn’t want to seem to needy. Adjusting was hard but you know what it has made me a better person in the end. I cherish what we had as you taught me so many lessons about myself. I will say that there are days that I just want to run back to the past, when everything was simple, but I’m excited for the future and to get my life back, I have spent far too long worrying about your life and how you are, it is time to start looking out for me.
I want to text you. Just to remind you that I’m still here.
But then I remember that you know I’m here. You just don’t care.
The recent release of “Dawn of the Planet of the Apes" reminded me of one of my favorite ape vs. man films – this 1932 video that shows a baby chimpanzee and a baby human undergoing the same basic psychological tests.
Its gets weirder – the human baby (Donald) and the chimpanzee baby (Gua) were both raised as humans by their biological/adopted father Winthrop Niles Kellogg. Kellogg was a comparative psychologist fascinated by the interplay between nature and nurture, and he devised a fascinating (and questionably ethical) experiment to study it:
Suppose an anthropoid were taken into a typical human family at the day of birth and reared as a child. Suppose he were fed upon a bottle, clothed, washed, bathed, fondled, and given a characteristically human environment; that he were spoken to like the human infant from the moment of parturition; that he had an adopted human mother and an adopted human father.
First, Kellogg had to convince his pregnant wife he wasn’t crazy:
…the enthusiasm of one of us met with so much resistance from the other that it appeared likely we could never come to an agreement upon whether or not we should even attempt such an undertaking.
She apparently gave in, because Donald and Gua were raised, for nine months, as brother and sister. Much like Caesar in the “Planet of the Apes” movies, Gua developed faster than her “brother,” and often outperformed him in tasks. But she soon hit a cognitive wall, and the experiment came to an end. (Probably for the best, as Donald had begun to speak chimpanzee.)
This is the most adorable experiment that has ever been done.