I’ve been gone for a while but I’m back. Hope all of you have been doing well, and sorry for being gone for so long.
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Posted 1 year ago
At a loss for words
At a loss for words, I don’t understand how someone who had so much going for him can suddenly be gone. He was only 26 and just had his first son. He won’t get to see his sons first Christmas, his first steps or first words. It’s not fair how someone who had such a big heart can be gone. I’m in disbelief I just keep thinking I’m going to wake up from this nightmare and that everything will be okay. I was suppose to go and see him and his wife and there son tomorrow. Everything is just so messed up now. I feel like this hole will never repair itself, how can it, he was so young. I’m trying to understand why he was taken from us but I just can’t, why him? The only thing that I take comfort in at this time is knowing that because of him, other families received their Christmas miracle as he donated his organs. I’m seriously still in shock, I just don’t know how I’m going to bounce back from this. I just don’t know.
Posted 1 year ago
It’s funny how one person can change my life so dramatically. If a person asked me a week ago if I was happy I would have said no. I was a wreck, I never wanted to get out of bed, I just wanted to cry. I hated feeling like this because of one person, but that one person is my best friend, sister, moon, gorgee, soul mate, rock to list a few. Without this girl my life was a mess, I missed her everyday, I cried everyday for 2 months, I hated the world and everything in it. All I knew is that this one person was such a major part of my life, and losing her was devastating to me, it hurt me more losing her then losing many of my loved ones. I was so alone, and lost without her, she was the one thing that kept me grounded so once I didn’t have that, I was just left floating. It hurt to go anywhere as I had so many memories all over this town with her. When you have someone in your life that you can talk to four hours about nothing, and it suddenly is no longer there, it feels like your entire heart has been ripped from your chest, like the very air you breathe is smoke, like everything is lost. People will never understand how much she means to me, it’s like she’s the light in the darkness the person who knows everything about me, she knows how to make me happy when I’m sad, knows my tickle spot, knows every little detail about me. Without her its hard to smile because she gives me more then 1000 things to smile about.
Nobody will understand the relationship we all share. It’s like when we’re together the world makes sense, and we don’t need anyone except each other. Our friendship can best be described as a rock, cause no matter how many times a rock is cracked or broken it always finds a way of returning. Take for example sediments they were once a rock and will once again be a rock, this is our friendship, no matter how many chips or cracks are put in we just transform into a newer better rock. Also the rock is a symbol of strength and stability. So to all those who have tried to break our rock here’s to you- keep trying but just keep in mind that no matter how many times our rock is cracked or smashed it will always remain strong and intact, so yupp keep trying.
I would also like to say to those who are upset that we are talking and who considered themselves to be my friend, I hope you read this and realize that she is the only person who can make me smile without trying, she makes me happy and to me that is all that should matter to people. I was so upset the last months without her so to have her back in my life makes me the happiest person, if your upset that were talking then be upset, because I am tired of people trying to bring us down. If you ever had a best friend like her then you would understand and be happy for us, rather then being sour. Also to everyone she has very large shoes to fill and to me personally no one in the world will be able to replace those shoes EVER.
I love you gorgee and can’t wait for the New Year so we can make tons of new memories :) <3 xo
The name is Tiffany.I'm not one for liars or bullshit. I always speak my mind, independence to me is a necessity. Live.laugh.love is the way to live life. Life is what you make it, live like your dying, love with all your heart and laugh at all the small things.
